I was off this week for mid-winter break. I have spent the days driving my munchkins to and from preschool, eating clearance Valentine's Day candy, contemplating how awful I am for not exercising in over a week, and feeling all around melancholy.
It is pretty hard to believe that I have some glimmer of hope at to prospect of going back to work on Monday. Don't get me wrong...living in sweats and spending time with my girls is wonderful. I have much regret over not being a stay at home mom. The regularity of my work schedule and the need to dress up, wear makeup and do my hair is something I seem to need for my sanity. For some reason, I can not bring myself to do these things unless I have somewhere "real" to go.
The realization that I do not know how to relax is settling in. I mean, to take it easy takes effort on my part. I have to consciously think about relaxing and that seems to defeat the purpose on some level.
I think I need to dust myself off and get back on the bandwagon of my exercise routine and making some kind of effort with my appearance this weekend. Maybe if I put it out in cyberspace, I will be more likely to follow through.
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